Deanne, i totally agree with you. What makes it even more surreal is that I have wanted to do this show for so long and now it's coming upon us. there's apart of me that wants to keep it in this incubator stage of rehearsal and exploration forever.
Last night however, as Ben and I rehearsed scene eleven- and I consequently decided I would need to see a therapist because the intensity and emotions were so visceral and overwhelming, I realized, come Friday not only will we be ready for an audience, we will be in need of them. I often have an intense need for an audience as I begin to feel ready for a show, not so much to validate my work, as to simply be a witness to it- and last night was my first realization with Annie, that soon I am not going to want, or need to to carry Annie's story within an insular environment any longer.